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Imagining far far away into the future...

something excites my curiosity a few hours back...i wonder what this earth will be like in say...year 2100...yeap i know its totally a longggggg way to go from 2008 but hey, it wont hurt at all to think about it just for some brief moment right =P

at this moment, the year of 2008 we're living in now has been a long history of things...many many things....its a countless list to start with...well lets ignore 2008 for a while and blink forward to 2100...phoooo, what is on in that particular period?

will civilization go beyond anything human could ever think of? quite possible..since technology are getting more advanced every day withous us realizing it...we're chilling out, sitting at home watching prison break, gossip girl or simply doing stuffs while some people out there are planning and making extremely sophisticated machines that we never bother to think of. i wonder whether we'll have some kind of machines flying over our heads moving with very high speed 0.0, ouch, it could be similar to those we watch in some futuristic movies like starship trooper, however, i certainly wish not to fight with insane population of human-killing bugs...zzz

in 2100...could there be more robots than human? even more, are humans going to be replaced with androids? this reminds me of the film i-robot where robots will be smart enough to be off control and turn deadly against humans that they could take over everything +_+ walao so scary

ok enuf bout stupid robots, what about life...are we gona be crazy hectic? will we have too many things that need to be done and are things gona be super complicated? if humans may still exist, are we gona be moving super-fast along with machines? or will humans be struggling for survival coz its over-populated and poverty, disease, crimes are harder to handle..we may be killing each other off coz everything is totally limited...its like one's head for one's small plate of edible food...then may it be no longer necessary to have feelings? no love no joy coz there is simply no time for that, everything's all about survival of the fittest but in humanly level? walawee T_T pretty scary also

again, because its way too populated, will there be a law that forbids you to procreate at all? lolzz, no reproduction whatsoever, by law women wont be allowed to give birth to more humans? and if you get caught, the only penalty is only death...@@ zzz more killings =.=

we could also talk about the gap between the well-off and the poor. By 2100, the gap may be ultra wide that the rich wont be needing the poor at all and to an extreme case, these few people could just eliminate the poor if they wish to,as their new form of hobby just to kill time? killing off the poor will be the new tv show for rich people? wtf...this one more gila...hahaha man this is too wicked

And, are we gona pick up phone calls with just our forefingers and pinkies coz they have been planted with highly advanced chips? cellphones are out of the question, moreover, we could be using our hands palm to replace the latest PDA, there will high definition screens on our palms, and you could access everything from there...hence humans are robot-like since our body parts are partly modified...so if anything rosakk, can change with any metal ha? we become real ironmen izzit? bew..

everythin is possible in the future, and life by then can also be quite scary to some extents, gulp*

panda out (+_+)

this panda wants to hibernate and skip the exams

argh, im reli feelin the moment......the time when youre so so so so so lazy to studyyyyyy, its like ZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZ, exams are just around the corner, getting closer by every hour, minute, and every split second...shittt

it will keep haunting me for good until the 23th of this june...the exam tension...it will keep buzzing me like a mosquito in my ear, like eerrrrr, my mind also somehow keeps telling me this "study la fucker, or later u can only 'mangap' and 'bengong' in the exam hall like an idiot" haizz...

aiya, i know sooner or later im gona have to study till i suffocate...this semester is quite tough for me...coz some subjects are just gila, it could blow your brains out...wish i were some kind of super bloody ass genius who doesnt have to study at all and score like fhoooo!!!! (some hardogay moment there) lolzz....

been some time since i write any blog, getting too lazy lately, its like panda becoming a pig, hope im more spirited next semester yosh, urgh, all i think of right now is just pulanngg kampunngggg!!! and forget bout MSIA for just at least 1 week! i need refreshment, i need food, LOL, why suddenly get so hungry one...dont blame me...blame my stomach

for those of you who are unfortunately having exams as well, i wish you all adequate study and rest so you can do well later...wish me luck also ya xD

oh ya, holiday, come faster laaahhh...T_T

-sleepless panda-

the night beckons

again, the silence of a night starts to overwhelm me.

its a world of many, many, impossible possibilities, that comes to mind...

this world is divided into countless other worlds you'd never imagine strongly and yet to be discovered...

each of us, individuals, humans, people, citizens of nations, are intentionally trained, naturally gifted, are used to things, and therefore possess specific skills of those worlds...altogether so complicated and interesting

either developed or not, some has more than the others, some has less, and many do not even realize this very fact...

may it be worlds of experience, worlds of competition, worlds of affection, worlds of entertainment, worlds of knowledge, it goes beyond anything u can think of...infinitely

understand all these components of life, as they make you run faster than ever.

yes they do.

-tomz-

5:16 and counting on

what i see of myself, of my life, and what i've been doing this past few weeks, are pretty wasted. I dont know if things got better or not, well, obviously, being lifeless is not one achievement right? have i been too blind and ignorant? my life right now has reached its peak of madness, i've lost myself and gone out of line...

whats done is done, whatever it takes, starting today onwards im gona try to get a hold of myself back, bring me the pain and torture

whats on my mind?

At last! Finally! (huaa..sok seru) i showed up at uni today, i got only one class at 3:00 pm which i almost missed, if i were to skip the class this time i would put the blame on the rain, it was raining quite heavily around 2 something. Sleeping and not waking up were just the two decisions i almost took, LOL, however, my determination was quite strong, so i rose from the super comfy bed, straight away went for shower, put on everything necessary and went to uni. Not bad for a lazybum like me, lol, the temptation of skipping this thursday class was quite unavoidable since theres only one class and afterwards weekend awaits @@, woohoo! so you know...class ended in 1 hour ++, had indomie from the cafetaria as my super late lunch, GG

Alright, so i've been missing  my hometown (palembang) a few times these days. Duno for what exact reason even though i cannot forget the fact that the place is mostly boring T_T, not that im underestimating my hometown at any point, its still developing, things will improve, LOL, thats what the government is hoping for, anyways, i absolutely miss the MIE BABI!!! omigod when i think of it or even as we speak, its too unforgettable, fagh! im too hungry right now!!! zzz, btw its not the only one, i also want pempek, tekwan, model, model gendum, hotel anugerah, nasgor sumatra, bakso gepeng, blah blah and many other crazy food my tongue ever tasted. T___T, i never expect that writing blog could be quite torturing somehow, >__<, laperrr.....zzzz

Another point to make, i cant wait for the holiday this coming June, maybe uni's too boring, hehe, or maybe im the only one making's a fuss over studying, >__<, zz, im arguing with myself, this is too sick, ok, i think im gona go back to my hometown for a week or so, at least, 1 week, to complete my sole objective, @@, "to eat all the food i mentioned before with complete satisfaction" LOL, uh huh, yea i'll do that, hehe, not only that, i also miss my loving family larr!!! and my dog, bubu, the remaining survivor in my house, he still cant wait to be fed everytime he smells food, =.=, what a dog, lol...

ok, im getting hungrier now, GG, gota find something to devour! hehe, babai

boring little wednesday

today, i reli did plan to show up at uni, but things turn out differently since i continued my sleeping until 5.35 =.=, so i basically skipped all the way thru my important tutorials, i reli dun have a say on this, GG, my sister's damn pissed, coz we're taking the same subject this sem. Anyhow, nothing much for today, i went to eat at a korean restaurant wif Andrew, Botak, Reyhan, and Benny, we 'slurped'  slices of roasted meats, porks, beef ribs, chicken, sotong, along with the side dishes. We also tried So-Ju, a korean Sake, not bad i think, and what else? yea, Vina's bday is on the 3th, its her nineteen as i recall

After dinner, the rest of the day was practically spent in my room, in front of my Qosmio, zzz, so lame, even dota today is boring, btw, im still sad about last mid-break, our plan din go as hoped T_T, da destination was Tioman island, we were not reli prepared for everything, to arrange the whole thing, from checking the travel agency to confirming hu's going and hu's not, anyways, a few of us ended up going to  Malacca, at least we managed to have sate celup (@ 50 cent only) and puttu piring ( 70 cent). We were late in locating chicken rice balls >_<, later in the midnight, we went to SunShine Bar, it was a small bar indeed, it was playing old rnb songs, and theres reli nothing much goin on there, TV's showing F1, blah blah.. we reached our home at 3 something and the trip ends.

thats it, im gona try to hit the bed, ciaoz

Its April

1 April 2008, or what most people would claim as April Fool's day

Erm, Tuesday Tuesday...well,
what a great day to start by skipping the one and only class i have for the day! LOL, skipping class rawks! @@, dont listen to me, im just so hopeless, ya, when i think of it, ive been skipping classes quite a lot this semester, is this gona be my worst semester? T_T i never intentionally hope so...

ZzZ, O ya i remember 1 thing, when it was late at night, i was having a very late dinner with winson eating jaffar's delivery, right after we finished, Vina suddenly called and told me that she got dropped out from CIMP coz of her rare attendance, 0.0, her parents had just come back from a short trip and got real mad, then Vina said that she only had 1 month left until she had to return to Indo, after the whole bullcrap turns out its April fool's day, NGENCOI lu vin

So, not much of an activity today, woke up at 3 something if im not mistaken, again, like every other day when i was still in mid-break, and mid-break only lasted for 7 days, =.= kill me pls, whats worse is that we, Monash students are usually stuck with  ASSIGNMENTS to submit at the end of the break, what a BITCH!!! whats the point of having a break if we all are supposed to do assignments day by day? zzz, geez

Carrying on, since i woke up late, i officially missed my healthy lunch so i tot i shud just wait until dinner, hours passed, i finished 1 game of dota, Mike, 1 of my lovely housemates  came to my room and said that "we got work to do", LOL, means Mike, me, along with 3 other friends, will go to ASIA CAFE, to do some office work on the second floor where hundreds of gaming PCs are located, XD, enuf of non-sense, you know we came for a few dota games, as we usually do when we are so damn bored and had nothing to do, hehe

Reached home at 2 something, and i got one sad thing in my mind = i got class at 9 am, T_T, morning class sux like hell, and i planned to come for lecture, skip 1 particular tutorial, and attend the last class at 3 coz its more important to me, LOL, sounds kinda stupid huh? coz not every subject is nice to attend to, anyway, there goes april's fool day ~_~

A reason to disappear

Kill me swiftly with the sharpest blade
Strangle me powerfully with the strongest arms
Kiss me passionately with the most poisonous lips

I detest life since life is too imbued with love
Is there an alternative to escape love's grip?
Do we have to suffer in such humanly sickness?

Everyone says we need love to survive
Do we say that love is inevitable?
I wish to fly away from this stupidity

Why is it appearing everywhere?
Is there no end to this?
What is really going on?

Can we say that life's too tragic to live in so we need love?
Or could we consider that it's beautifully created for the sake of humanity
I'm begging for an ending

Can someone tell me that everything will end tonight?
I do not need any of this coz i'm too fed up with life
enuf of love, enuf of sorrow, enuf of tears falling apart
Bring forth my deathbed and just, let me lie down

Had enuf of yourself?

i dont need love
i dont need sympathy
i dont need world's smartest brain
i dont need world's riches
i dont need to cry
i dont need to shout
i dont need the perfect look
i dont need everyones attention
i dont need debates
i dont need politics
i dont need bullshit
i dont need trashtalk
i dont need any weakness
i dont need to care
i dont need to sleep
i dont need to grieve
i dont need to live

lifes too full of craps, but thats what make the world one heck of a world huh?
the moment u blink and open back your eyes and youre still there means you got to do something, and that something, is one you need to figure out yourself

SleeplessNights~

When the day gets away and shifts into the night, another part of me awakes and starts to make me stay up, carrying on into countless thoughts of the so-called life.

simple and complex, altogether wrapped around this tiny little head
how can life get so fun at a time and miserable at another?
how is love possible for everyone? what changes a person's good behaviours to a bad personality? on and on to many other stuffs...

is it just me playing tricks with my mind? trying to excite non-sense from the unconscious? or am i just simply emo-ing for the day?
whatever it is, this kind of habit has led me to many long, sleepless nights.

one thing that strikes me at times is the very thing that can either bond or break everyone at the same time, LOVE, this simple four letter word really influences a lot of people. All in all, everyone is affected with love whether you admit it or not.

As for me, i guess ive been a terrible disappointment to someone since i've lost track of that feeling along the way. What a way to happen huh? yea, story of my life.

anyways, life must go on right. Days keep changing to nights, nights of thoughts, hopes, and dreams. And i suppose my days will keep on turning to those nights, my sleepless nights.